#1 FACT about me :)

I'm VAIN! as innn. waaa. I like to take a picture of myself whenever i feel beautiful or in the mood. HAHAHA. 

 I'm bored so I picked-up my phone/cam to took self-image. HAHAHA

I just love myself. <3 <3

Tegami (LETTER)

when I my mom played the TEGAMI, I instantly remember and reminisce my h.s days. weee. We made a remarkable history in our school because luckily we are the 1st batch to sang a Japanese song in our graduation rites :P

TEGAMI

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no tane ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsudzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Oh Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la,
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenaii de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu...

LOVE

half of my heart is with _______ :P

We've been together for quite sometime and shared some laughter and sadness all the time.

Day by day your presence makes me awake and in my mind you filled-up the space. 

Can't keep smiling every time I hear you calling and makes my heart pounds as if I am falling.

Seeing you as my other half makes me confused and questioned myself, are we gonna last?

I can't believe this is happening for in my life I've been waiting for this thing. 

I MISS YOU

graduation pic

I miss my best friends so much :( It's been almost a year since our h.s life ended. After our graduation, we rarely see each other, we rarely communicate and hangout. I miss those 3 pangitness! I miss the sweetness of Marlouie, the protective Ramon and the kikay Inah. I miss hanging out with them even for a short period of time. I just want to go back in time when the four of us would stay in our tambayan ( kahit bawal doon ) hahaha :P I miss when mon would headbutt me everytime I arrived and Marlouie's huggggggggggggsssss T.T 

ate and me :)

paloy style namin ni mon @inah's debut

lobot and me @gs8

HALF OF MY HEART

i just love this song <3 I don't know why but maybe because of the lyrics specifically

 LONELY WAS THE SONG I SANG
'TILL THE DAY YOU CAME
SHOWING ME ANOTHER WAY
AND ALL THAT MY LOVE CAN BRING

~ I CAN'T STOP LOVING YOU WITH HALF OF MY HEART<3 ~

HURT

can't stop crying :'(

So close, yet so far

This is what I feel right now

Your hands are too cold

And it is like a nail that hurting me slow

Every actions and every words you speak

Is like the memories I wanted to keep

Those stunning eyes that I was able to see

Is turning into pain and hatred that I feel in grieve

I love you and this is real

But for you it is so unreal

My heart is broken and crying in tears

And my body is shaking like I was cut-off by shears

Thoughts of you will always be in my mind

For you alone I was able to smile

Reminiscing those happenings that I wanted to go

But I guess it is impossible to happen because I already stop the flow!

YOU COMPLETE ME

in the middle of nowhere :P

Expecting is so hard to feel

That's making my thoughts so unreal

Those days and years that I felt down

You came into my life and made me calm

Those jokes and sweet actions that you do

Made my heart said I do

Every time I think of you

I always wonder if this is really true

It is like a dream that is so hard to reach

But you said “No, you already reach my peak.”

On day onwards my life is so complete

 I don’t want it to end and continue forever with you and me.

LOVING YOU

just made a heart to show how much I LOVE YOU <3

Words are not enough to say it

Actions cannot be fulfilled without doing it

Time passes through and all I see is you

Thoughts of you always came in into my mind

Because eventually you were there all the time

Forever is not the word that is perfect

Cause it can be destroyed as it defeated

I can love you as long as I am living

For in this world you are worth loving.

Letting Go

letting you go is the hardest thing to do :'(

Letting go is never easy that I wish I am tipsy

For the pain cannot be tame and the love cannot be blame

Letting go of the past doesn't mean my love won’t last

This thing I will do for the sake that I will be free from you

The memorise that I won’t forget and in my life I will never ever regret

Those ups and downs that will never be erased for in my heart it will always remain

I love you more than yesterday but I think I should stop today

You will be that special gift that God had gave me but for now I will stay away to put all the pieces in my life completely.



The Best Gift

i so love them <3

The voice I’ve heard from day to day makes me curious everyday

Those jokes of you make me laugh that made my heart pound as if it is the last

You take away the sadness in my eyes for in the shadow of you I can hide

I never wished this kind of perfection but God gave me a person that will serve as my inspiration

This friendship of ours that I wish it would last because this relationship is one of the best gift I could ever had.

- SOMEONE -

Filling up those spaces between the lines made me feel that you are mine

Holding your hands like there is no tomorrow and keeping me calm despite of my sorrow

That picture perfect smile became my favourite view all the time

Laughing with tears and embracing me with no fear was a memory that I can’t tear

Keeping my heart with you forever and promise that there is no other

Loving you as much as you do is not a command that God asked me to.

Best Friends

best friends . . how i miss the 3 of them :((

Time passed by and the four of us went to our separate ways. Meet my 3 best friends, (from left to right) Marlouie which I called LOBOT (because he has a big and nice butt. haha), me with a red handkerchief, Inah  we call each other ATE and lastly Ramon/ Mon who's been my LOLO. 

We've been called as a mysterious/amazing/ and whatsoever you like to call us because honestly speaking, the 4 of us had an affair. HAHAHA. uhm let me rephrase or explain our kinda "TORNADO" story. First, me and Mon became best friends since 2nd year h.s then we've been M.U(mutual understanding) for quite long until Mon found a new girl (ouch, that hurts ) then Inah came in, then lobot. Lobot and I became M.U during our 3rd yr.; he's so sweet! haha. When we got our last year in h.s, our very memorable senior years, Mon and Inah became couples then sadly lobot had a feelings for Inah ( so complicated). hahaha. Our extravagant relationship had an ending and lucky we survived and remain as BEST FRIENDS despite of what happened. :P

I really miss those 3 idiots. haha. Mon is now in Japan, Marlouie is in U.S.A and still Inah and I remain here in our homeland. Inah's been busy in her nursing career now that's why we rarely see each other at school. I want to go back in our old days but we have to move on and see our brighter future even though we are miles apart, sooner they will come home and together again, we will be complete as "THE CRAZY BEST FRIENDS"

Scared

lost in silence

I'm wondering if it's already time, time to accept and love. I know I'm always scared because I've experienced  enough pain since the day Paul and I broke-up last year. I love him so much up to the point that I am willing to do everything for him to come back. I felt rejected back then, he always ended up denying that we saw each other and etc. The pain that I've experienced and felt makes my heart numb, I don't want to love anymore, I am so scared that if I fell in love with someone again, I'll end up being hurt and hanging. I don't want to experience what I experienced before. I don't want to suffer and be broken again.

Taking risk may be dangerous! I don't know if I can truly open my heart once again, that I can love someone as much as I loved my ex before. I know I should take some risk for me to know what should be the possible outcome if I'll give my heart to that person, the person who's been with me for quite sometime, the person that's been with me through my downfall, the person that knows my daily activities even though we rarely see each other. He's not my type but lately I saw his deeper being, the type of person that I see and think of my other half, the person who can love you despite of your flaws. But honestly, for now, I only seen him as a FRIEND, the CLOSEST BOY FRIEND here in my heart. I don't know what will happen to us but I hope we'll end-up happy :)